Dreams...

What is about dreams that when they are knocking on our doors it sparks a fear in us? A few weeks ago I found a job posting with a company that would be my dream company in a new line of work. To provide some context when I started considering a new career and I thought about where I would want to work said company was one of the first names to come to mind. So as I was saying I saw a posting that I would be well qualified for, but somehow before I even applied for the job I was convincing myself out of it. I could find every reason I shouldn't apply. The commute would be a little far, 40 mi and involving a bridge. The post said that they needed someone available for possible holiday and weekend shifts (do I really want to work on weekends?). And on and on it went with my mind providing every reason that I shouldn't apply to the job. After seeing the post I talked about it with the HyWy and that was when I saw how different we really are. She couldn't believe that I would even second guess the position let alone cut myself off at the gates. Then I started thinking about my dreams and what I have dreamed about during my life. I don't think I have ever pursued any realistic dreams before. I mean I have had dreams, but they have been very generalized (ie have a good job, etc.) so to consider them or pursue them is a little more vague. However, for the first time in my life I have a true and clear dream: to be able to support myself and the HyWy through a job in this new career. Now with this new very clear and easily definable dream as I get closer to realizing it (or failing) it's scary and intimidating. In the end I have realized that there is no point in having dreams if you are not willing to experience all aspects of the dream (success, failure, trying, etc.).