Spacewalking through my life

Today marks one month since the HyWy left for her trip and I was reflecting on what it has been like for me. I can definitely see some changes in how my days/weeks progress particularly with my comfort level in coming home to an empty house. However, I've also noticed another interesting aspect about my level of activity and how busy I am. I think I have already mentioned how one of the ways that I make the time pass quicker is by having visitors (overnight or just friends over for the evening). I'm also hosting some CouchSurfers now that most of my overnight visitors are done. I feel as though when the HyWy is at home she grounds me in my desire to do things whether by not wanting to do certain things or by making me aware to the fact that I'm spreading myself thin. An anology I made to a coworker was that I consider myself like an astronaut on a spacewalk with a tether that keeps me from drifting off into space. When I'm by myself I let that tether way out and I'm just drifting around doing my thing, which is not necessarily good/safe even though dodging space junk might be fun. With the HyWy around she usually draws me in a little more which is definitely better for me in the long run. For example with the CouchSurfers and visitors this weekend I had two friends over Thurs., my cousin over Fri/Sat, and then I was thinking about having some CouchSurfers on Sun/Mon. Ultimately it didn't happen with the CouchSurfers, but the HyWy would have looked at the situation and seen the more practical need for some downtime (thus pulling me in a bit). I'm sure this analogy may come across to my being kept on a leash, but that is not what I'm saying. The tether/leash just symbolizes how much I'm doing.

After rereading this post I'm laughing thinking about it and knowing that there are bound to be people who think I'm insane. HAHA!