Bachelor Part 2

Today I dropped the HyWy off at the aiport to begin her journey.  I'm not sure how I feel right now.  I am feeling a combination of things including, but not limited to: excitement, anxiety, sadness, happiness, exhaustion, relief, and curiosity.  I did not include lonliness, because as she put it this morning there is a certain threshold of activity and time before lonliness sets in.  It may not set in.  It may come tomorrow.  It may come in a month.  I'm somewhat in fear of when it does come simply because of my last experience living on my own, in about 1998.  I know what all of you are saying...that was so long ago, you've changed so much since then, etc.  No doubt I have and it was.  However, the experience had such a profound impact on me and I have nothing to contrast it against it still scares me.  The differences between then and now are tremendous.  I have learned to cook.  Back then when I was in my dorm and first apartment, after my roommate was kicked out of school for grades, I ate less frequently.  This was mostly due to the fact that I didn't like to go to the dining hall by myself nor did I really know how to cook (save for quesadillas, pasta, and rice a roni).  I have a pretty solid schedule now.  Back then I was in college and while I had a schedule of classes I didn't have a schedule in my life.  During the week right now when the HyWy is around we usually come home from work, workout, cook dinner, and hang out.  There doesn't really have to be a major change to that.  I am more comfortable on my own.  In college when left on my own I didn't really know what to do (an odd thing for an only child).  Now with my eyes open to the options the choices are limitless (guitar lessons, books, concerts, climbing, running, exploring, etc.).  So as the HyWy has been saying and preparing me for this separation I think I've begun to agree with her.  It will be hard, but it won't be that bad.